Melancholy of a Helpless Moron

Tonight I wander under this velvet canopy,

A stare to what sadness has brought the stars;

With the moon engulfed in strange tranquility,

Thus, light is strangled, a night in its scars.

Can you hear me calling out your name?

Even whispered it to the cunning breeze;

Should he go and tell you it’s not the same,

Without you, everything’s in a freeze…

When will I see you, Oh warmth of sunshine,

Morning’s too cold without you near my sight;

Tonight, I’ll visit you in my dreams to see if you’re fine,

I’ll be there to comfort you forever as the night…

Wishing that you’re here so we can share the symphony,

Let the songs serenade us with their melancholic melody…

Minsan di natin namamalayan kung kelan sya dadaan,

Sa tuwing titingin tayo sa bintana, hindi natin siya maaninag;

Tila nagkukubli sa tindi ng sikat mula sa kalangitan,

Ngayo’y nagtatanong, hanggang kailan ka ba iilag?

Maka-ilang beses na ba akong lumabas ng pinto,

Makadungaw lang sa labas para hanapin ka…

Matagal pa ba akong magmumukmok dito sa kwarto,

Upang masilayan ka’t makapiling na…

Kailan mo iguguhit ang ngiti sa aking mga labi?

Kailan mo dadalhin ang lamig sa aking isipan?

Sunduin mo na ako’t nang saya’y mamutawi,

Sa puso kong kanina pang bilad dito sa arawan…

Bakit ba ang tagal mo namang dumaan sa aming kalsada,

Mamang sorbetero, naghihintay na ang aking barya…

Haven’t seen these lights shine brighter,

Across the heavens of glittering stars;

Together with the breeze that gone colder,

And the melodic tune of fast moving cars…

Together we’re standing along the city streets,

Flashes of sirens with glimpse of headlights;

People around accompanying the urban beats,

Happy thoughts freed, having their free flights…

Tonight may seem to be the longest for the day,

With smiles and glances under the velvet hue;

When hearts sing while towering stoplights play,

When happiness means just you in plain view…

Now it’s time we wave goodbyes and end the night,

The streets were once alive while you were in sight.

Take me away to your secret garden,

Where dreams and fantasies come true;

Take me ’til we reach rainbow’s haven,

Far away we go, just me and you…

Take away the frown in my face,

Wipe my tears and blow them away;

Take away the sadness and its trace,

Replace it with smiles and let them stay…

Spread your magic, oh butterfly wings,

Let your colors shine in my darkest corners;

Across the long border, my heart sings,

It’ll feel your warmth as it searches for covers…

Hold me close and take me to forever,

No matter how far, as long as we are together…

Hindi ko namalayang nagdilim na naman ang langit,
Maya-maya lang siguro’y huhulagpos na ang ulan;
Hinahanap ang buwan at ang mga bitwing marikit,
Nawala ng tuluyan na parang sa kupas na larawan…
Sa isang madilim na kalsada’y inaagusan na ng luha,
Na tila ang kanyang kahapo’y inagos na sa siphayo;
Magpapalakad-lakad sa baha ng kawalang pag-asa,
Na parang sumuko na sa masamang biro ng mundo…
Ngunit di man inasahan, araw di’y sa kanya’y sisilip,
Hahawiin ang pangamba’t isasantabi ang alinlangan;
Nabasa man sa ula’y sa dulo’y maaari ng maidlip,
Kalakip ang mga ngiti matapos ang pagtahan…
Ngayong gabi, hayaan mong sabihin ko ang saloobin,
Sa hampas ng ula’y binigyang kulay mo ang papawirin…

I was very excited to wake up today…

I was in search for tickets to watch my favorite band, Sugarfree, play on Music Museum with the Philharmonic Orchestra on the 29th.

Unfortunately, I have encountered a lot of delays and misfortunes along the way… I felt that those tickets were not meant for me… When I was about to leave our house, rain began to fall… Heavily… Then, accidents happened in the South Expressway, keeping our bus in traffic for more than two hours… After that, when i was about to cross the railroad in Buendia, a train was about to pass by… Lastly, our jeepney had to wait for passengers before it left (well, it just took 15-20 mins Ü)

At last, I’m already in Makati and I’m on my way to Ticket World to avail the tickets… I need to rush… Time was running out…

And there I was, waiting at the lobby… Waiting for an answer to my querry… Waiting if there are still available tickets…

One of the clerks approached me and said, "Sir, unfortunately, wala na pong tickets na available… Nagkaubusan na po kahapon… Sorry,,,"

It was a dark moment… I wanted to watch that concert so badly…. I wanted to ask some more for possiblities, for I was very desperate… But every thought coming out of mind was covered with nothingness… The search was over…

But then, one of the managers approached me as I was about to exit their office… He said, "Sir, we mislooked our records and apparently, may dalawa pang natitira… ‘Yun na ang last… Pero sa balcony na lang s’ya…" Quickly, I answered back, "Can I pay for them now?"

…It was a Yes!

The manager took the payment and after a few minutes (few ba ang 30 mins?), he went out of his room and gave the receipt and the pair of tickets… I was in jubilation and I know, I was laughing back then… I thanked the manager and hurriedly, went out of their office and examined the tickets… I’m holding the tickets for real!!! I was extremely happy… EXTREMELY HAPPY!!! Sent messages to my boss to tell how lucky I was to get the last 2 tickets and how overwhelmed I am…

Now, I’m here, typing all the thoughts popping out of my mind, to express how happy and grateful I am… and not to forget, how lucky I am… Ü

dark clouds are clogging your Thursday morning,

everything left was damaged by the struggle;

across these heavy fumes, you keep on gasping,

stranded in a razed land where living is a hurdle…

you thought that dying would be so much better,

alone with corpses brought by the horrendous past;

the trace of gunpowder leaves your hope dimmer,

and the smell of blood has taken your will to last…

but then again, time will just let the heavens pour,

like the very last drop of tear in your weary eyes;

let this battlefield be cleansed and haunt you no more,

no matter how hurt you are, later, you’ll soon realize…

there will still be wars out there waiting to be fought,

another day in the open with morals waiting to be taught…

ikaw ang malamig na simuyo sa aking gabi,

na nagbibigay init sa aking mga paggunita;

parang mga salitang ayaw magmula sa labi,

ngunit sadyang ninanais na isulat ng mga tala…

sa’yo nagmumula ang aking ngiti sa kawalan,

habang nagtataka sa akin ang buong mundo;

tanging ikaw lang ang naiisip na takbuhan,

kahit na ang pag-iisip ko’y sinasadlak mo sa gulo…

ikaw lamang ang matagal ko ng hinihintay,

kahit na mga alaala mo’y sa aki’y nagpapanggap,

ikaw man ang sanhi ng malungkot kong paghimlay,

ngunit ‘di ako titigil, makanakaw lang ng isang sulyap…

mas pipiliin ko ang maghintay kahit lubusang masaktan,

kaysa mahulog sa panaginip na kathang-isip lamang…

if you’d ask me, it was just pure hell,

a week with nothing but numbness;

everything’s shut, even i can’t tell,

a life left in shivering cold and nothingness…

i just knew again i’ll end up lying on the floor,

questions haunting and asking what went wrong;

but then, i thought there’ll be something more,

like another undying melody of an epic song…

I just know for myself I wouldn’t commit;

and never will I quit something dearest to me;

please don’t blame me, to this I still submit,

everything around you that brings so much glee…

now, I’m much more decided to give it all,

no one’s settling for a setback, no one’s settling for a fall…

natatanaw ko na ang kadiliman ng kalangitan,

nawawala ang liwanag ng buwan at mga bitwin;

tila nababalot ng madilim na ulap at kalungkutan,

kasama ang mabigat na simoy na bumabalot sa isipan…

naaalala ang bawat minutong namunga ng ngiti,

at ang mga alaalang sa tuwina’y mamumutawi;

ang noong nababalot ng walang kapalit na ligaya,

ay nanahan na lamang sa sakit at dusa,

ninanais sanang maibalik ang kahapon,

ngunit ‘di mahayaan, ni mapagbigyan ngayon;

nanghihingi ng katarungang nais sanang makamit,

ang bawat sandaling ‘di ninais mawaglit…

ngayong gabi, nakadungaw ako sa kalayuan,

kasama ang papawiring kalakip ay kadiliman;

maya-maya pa’y sasang-ayon din ang langit,

kasama ko s’yang luluha’t titigil ng ilang saglit…

ngayon alam mo na kung ano ang pakiramdam,

kung paano mabuhay sa dilim ng kawalang pag-asa…